“Robert, you are in denial!”

A few years back while I was playing the role of “Lord of the Lodge” at one of the better known west coast retreat centres, one of the staff – after reading ‘my’ book – said, “Robert, I think you are in denial!” She never actually made it clear as to what I was in denial of, but never the less, it seemed to spark an internal inquiry. After a lot of pondering, the only thing that I could come up with was that, yes indeed, I was denying the Truth of who or what I Am. I was continuing to strive to become “awake” like I believed the teachers whose pointings I had been following – Maharshi, Nisargadatta, Krishnamurti, Eckhart, Francis Lucille, and a few others. For a while, Mooji was my only teacher and although his basic instruction is that “you have nothing to do,” and “to remain as the Self.” It seems the mind was still trying to “get it” somehow. Robert WAS in denial! Anyway, this is just sort of an intro into what follows. It seems that whenever I am in the company of “like-minded” folks…like this afternoon, and the conversation appears to be on a real superficial level, with lots of “because” or “they should or shouldn’t,” or giving ‘personal’ credit (or blame), cause and effect, etc. etc., this character, “me,” seems to take on the role of a Zen stick and wants to keep reminding them that they are acting like they are in denial. Denial of who they really are. And sometimes it might appear to be abrupt and that I am being like the non-dual police. It might appear to be like that, but it really comes from a place of Love. Love of My Self in a temporary disguise as my friend sitting across the table. It’s like “come-on get Real, or stop-it! Stop denying what You know you are. Start Being It! Walk the talk!” “You know You are this Magnificence. This, Unconditional Love. You never were this dream character that appears to be in this fantasy called daily life and living!” “So, snap out of it!” (sort of hitting them across the back of the head with a Zen stick.) But again, all of what appears to be confrontational is not that at all! Even though I know there is no “they” or “them” or any one actually saying all the gibberish (or reacting to it!) love and compassion seem to arise. Instead of the statement made by Paul Heddermans and others, “We are all in recovery.” How about, “We are all in denial!” Has a different flavour…no? It’s like ignoring what and who I Am (and have always been) as opposed to a belief that there every was one to recover. Or, believing one is sick and needs to recover to become well or whole again. As opposed to denying the One ever became ill and has always been all the Wellness there is! But of course the One I Am cannot do either…It just IS! There are 4 quotes on Denial on the Official K Site… http://www.jkrishnamurti.org/krishnamurti-teachings/daily-quote-list.php?t=Denial