Self-Inquiry with Joel Kroeker, November 16, 2025
We began by discussing the various aspects that reinforce the illusion of our apparent continuation of self in relation to “choiceless awareness”. A question arose about human will and “determination” in regard to the freedom to do or not do something. We explored through personal experience how this creates a resistance or a tension, which we sometimes tend to escape through numbing ourself from a core “urgency”.
We explored a potential differentiation between a sense of self-oriented urgency (to maintain a solid sense of self) versus a kind of core urgency that seems to be Nature itself. We wondered if perhaps we anesthetize ourselves (ie through a distancing numbness) from experiencing this core urgency on an ongoing basis.
We explored various ways to instead encounter this core urgency directly without escaping from it and what that feels like in daily life.
– Joel Kroeker
